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April 14th, 2008

10:13 pm - i dont even know what to say....
VJ is totally MIA. where are you?!
im only a fuck buddy(not even) to ramon and it hurts. we just chilled this sat. but i think thats why theres no phone call...because i didnt sleep with him.
i wont see Leroy for two weeks.
but VJ. where in the world are you....
i love you to death.
i'm drinking again.
im scared.
im lonely.
i feel so used.
save me again VJ....
i dont want ramon to hurt me. i know you will stop the hurt. but you....and your cancer....im so scared. I miss your voice...
Current Music: Amy Winehouse- Love Is A Losing Game

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February 13th, 2008

11:29 pm - love it
fuck Geoff, fuck Chisholm, fuck Lily, fuck Sonja, fuck everyone.
friends, music, and alcohol <3
screw you for raping me asshole
i hate you.
ex best friend
ex co-brother

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September 22nd, 2007

06:57 pm
they are all leaving
and D
how how how
its so unfair
so deadly
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent

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September 21st, 2007

10:05 pm
this isnt fair

i dont know what i did wrong doug
i liked you since last year
am i not good enough for you?           

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September 11th, 2007

09:30 pm
i will fuck, just for you.
just because of you

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September 9th, 2007

09:37 pm
we were together.
we are not.
now, we are not.
we were lovers, unintensified.
i wanted too be more than complicated.
but i knew i would never me Isolde.
you inspired me.
you were my reason for wanting too change the world.
you are my reason.
no matter how estranged we are
my heart its place for you.
you saw me rotten and lost
you were there for me as much as you could have been.
i was a sad sad girl the day i walked away.
but i had too let you go.
i was holding you back.
and i had too move on.

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September 8th, 2007

11:04 pm
i was the one who left you the first time.who left you the last time. i always did it with tears in my eyes. how could i love you with no balance/ i was too needy, you were ungiving

you never had to give up on me. so much for the love, Michael Dean.

its been a year. me and Alexander loved each other. never more than friends.

last night i went too the taste of the kingsway. i had a feeling you were there. then again maybe you werent. but it felt dangerous. it felt scary. i loved it.

maybe i was hoping i would see you. but what would i have done if i had? i cant even imagine.

i look for you in every corner. maybe i want too see how you are like now. i loved you, and i still do. my heart misses you, so incredibly much. i doubt myself so much. i have become glamorous, and sex-driven. it was all you. you pushed me here, tore out every beautiful shred of innocence i had. i hate you. i hate you both.

Current Location: bedroom
Current Mood: crushedcrushed

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September 2nd, 2007

11:02 pm
im sorry Leroy, but it is over. it is really really over. i will always love you, but we will never be like we were. never again. i love you.

Current Location: bedroom
Current Mood: crushedbroken
Current Music: John Mayer- Slow Dancing in a Burning Room

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August 30th, 2007

10:10 pm
it over between me and Leroy. im crying so much. i cat handle him anymore. second time this has happened. i dont know how he will react. maybe it will be a mistake but i dont know. i loved him but he cant handle me.  but i need a release from him and thats exactly what i am doing
Current Location: bedroom
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: James Morrison-My Last Goodbye

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August 27th, 2007

YUH YUH i am very happy.
i am still kind of upset though.
i lost alot of friends
but im a computer nerd though:D
i love leroy, i really think i do.
maybe i don't though
i find myself straying away from him sometimes, and seeing myself with other guys
like Ken
even though i just met him, i like him
hes the exact replica of VJ though
i dont want another VJ
and then theres Jeff "Fergie" (thats his nickname)
ugly as helll
he asked me out and i said no
he had a chance already but he makes me sick
another thing is that i noticed guys like girls who are broken
i dont know why, maybe it makes them beautiful in a tragic way
i dont know.
i know that one day it will all be okay
it will           

Current Location: bedroom
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent
Current Music: Darren Hayes-On the Verge Of Something Wonderful

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